So, as much as I want to eat mindfully…. I have this part that just will not loosen its grip on food. For a long time, I just wanted to rid myself of this part. It was a bad part. An evil part. It was a part that was ruining my life.
But as Elyse Resch says, “•We don’t do anything for “no good reason”. Rather than judging our actions, even if they appear to be negative or destructive, remember that there is always a pay-off to what we do. Whatever we’ve done is probably a coping mechanism when we know no better way to cope. We just have to ask ourselves whether the pay-off we get from maintaining this coping mechanism is still working or is still worth the benefit. We also must see if we can find or have the capacity for utilizing a healthier coping mechanism at this point in our lives. ”
This is a time to get curious with this part.
This part has protected me from something that to me feels very dangerous and scary. And I don’t really know what that is about.
The part (who is nameless at present) keeps me from dealing with any type of negative emotion.
I would much rather be numbed out and distracted than welcome it, or even acknowledge the protection it provides me with.
But Byron Katie says, “An uncomfortable feeling is not an enemy. It’s a gift that says, ‘Get honest; inquire.’ ”
Enter Internal Family Systems. I’ve been reading about the work of Dr. Richard Schwartz, & his work with parts & personality.
More about that another time….